For those precious few who read or even know about the existence of this blog, a very, very belated Happy New Year! Hope these 24 days have been good for all of you! So many changes, so many things to note. I haven't blogged for quite some time already, and now's a good time as any to start again, I suppose...
For all who've stuck on with me for the past year, and before that, thank you for being there, part of my life and beyond. Thanks for caring, and for sharing. With NS gone now, new horizons appear, and new threats loom. With the constant pressure of the absence of income hovering over me, and the many unspoken things that have yet to be completed, new challenges sprout from nothing, as I leave old ones behind. Things change this year, for everyone'll be separated. I guess deep down inside, throughout our NS lives, the thought that just the next year will see us taking different paths down in life, perhaps never to meet again on this never-ending road. I believe that in every stage of our lives, we find and lose friends, love and hope, but I've currently several groups of friends who never fail to put a smile on my face, never fail to be a source of hope and comfort for me. Hope you guys stay forever and ever! Girls too... =D
I think life is gonna change for many of us, and I'm exposed to so many different aspects of life, it just frightens me that the world really, really isn't as perfect as I had made it out to be. Sure, NS taught me a lot of life and the world beyond nerdy JC existence, but through my leadership training at LDC, I've met so many new people, re-connected with an old friend (and crony), and been exposed to a whole new myriad of different attitudes and cultures that I never thought possible. For those who've been in constant contact with me, you'd know what I'm talking about. I miss Farand, and the 3 amigos hanging out, gorging on food. I know that I'll have to spend less time with Cyn, 'cos she really has her studies to think about. I'd really like to take LDC as my primary job, and throw myself into the work full-time, but there just isn't enough there for me to find security. NTU approaches ever so silently, and it's a constant test to myself to make the best of my time BEFORE NTU, rather than try to mess up my probably-already-packed schedule there. At least I'll be rooming with my best friend, if all goes according to plan! =)
Ah well. Despite the frightening changes the life brings, it's what makes it so beautiful as well. I love Cyn more than ever, for just being the most beautiful and sweet presence in my life, made even more precious by the fact that I see her less now. I really treasure my closest friends, the other 2 amigos, whom in my opinion can never be replaced, ever. I appreciate my TJ class guys so so much, for sharing and being more than just friends. And my VS brothers, the less reason we have to see each other, the more we do, just to laugh, and sing and play. Best of luck for this year, everyone!
"The Gods envy us. They envy us because we're mortal, because any moment might be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we're doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now, and we will never be here again."
- Achilles in Troy
