Game on, man, game on!!!

Leadership?

Well, I'm into leadership training now, and it's kinda a love-hate relationship, love being more than hate, of course, that's why I'm doing it. =)

It's an absolutely exhausting job, and it takes almost all your willpower to motivate and inspire classes, with students that badly need it, and having to do it over and over again to brand new ones. As if this wasn't enough, it's the prospect of preparing the course that you give, how you present the lessons to them, and why they react the way the do. All this in addition to preparing the material, which involves stapling and printing hundreds of booklets per school, not to mention creating the material and the powerpoint slides and all as well. (Ask Sherman, he should know, with his aching shoulder... =D) We're about to embark into all this, and considering the magnitude of the entire thing, it quite literally scares the crap outta me. Maybe I'm not as confident as Sherman is in handling all this, and maybe I'm just a lazy bum, but I fear that I might not be able to live up to the massive confidence that the people in LDC is giving us.

On the other hand...

I've realised, once again, that there's nothing more rewarding than to have people appreciate the work you put in, the person you are, and the things you are willing to do, or sacrifice. Interestingly, I get this most of all after the worst of the programmes, with the students I least expect to come out of this enlightened, where I'm the most stressed and frustrated. It's in that moment that you realise, it's all worth it. Really. If you but keep that in mind, the stress is nothing.

I'm beginning to love this job, and I really wanna go all the way with this, both for the kids, and for myself. Yet, I feel dampened, for some reason. Why...? =(

On a separate note, a belated Gong Xi Fa Cai to everyone! May you be prosperous and have the best of luck this new year! =D